call me

i've finally done it. i've broken my phone.  well actually it still technically works.
i just cannot see anything as the screen is just blank.  not just white anymore but completely black.
while this may be ok for some, as i still have a phone that works while many are going hungry, the most important thing i lost is the power of screening. i cannot screen my calls!  i cannot be picky with who i converse with .
ok so that's not the only thing that sucks about it dying.  there's more...
i completely forgot to physically write down anyone's phone number.  now i thought about this a few weeks ago when it started to act all funky.  i signed up to myverizon.com and successfully backup-ed my whole address book. smart me, yes, but not so smart john.
so in my panic of realizing i can no longer see text messages (more of that in a bit) i log into my account only to find out that i stored my password ON MY PHONE!!!  so i try & try... & successfully lock myself out of my online account.  great! then i go to rest my password and guess what?!?'
they text the new temporary password to my phone! FUCK.
i think there is a karma phone rule that's screwing with me.  just 'cuz i dropped it last night onto the pavement while waliking into the theater last night, or just 'cuz i dropped it on ray's floor this morning when i woke up, or just 'cuz i threw it against the wall numerous times, i don't know.  stupid phone.
now it beeps at me when i receive & don't answer a text.
my lifeline is texting.  just how impersonal & simple text messages can be is one of the reasons why i love to text but how important & meaningful my text messages from ray is something completely different.  it's our contact while at work or a simple 'good night' that i will miss. for a week...
while i see this as the death of my phone (services later this evening) it's only for about a week.  i'll be in the dark until my upgrade date which funnily enough is in 7 days!!!
damn those karma phone rules.
so until the day when i go into the phone orphanage to pick out my new & shiny bouncing baby phone, i get to listen to the incessant beeps of a text message that will go unreceived & answer the phone to the unknowing.